Having completed a whole series on Bullying, for part of my “40 Days of Writing” project, I can now focus on other topics.
A problem I have been having of late is that I tend to focus on the voids in my life. I spend so much time envying and being downright jealous of others; what I need to do is condition myself to automatically reel myself back from those feelings of longing and self-doubt, and consider all that is wonderful in my life.
Sometimes all it takes is a special moment to remind me of how fortunate I really am. Yesterday morning was a good example. A vacation day, I got to sleep in, but as I drifted in and out of sleep, negative, nagging thoughts started to permeate my mind. I alternated between sleeping on my left side and my back as I tried to fall back asleep. As if on cue, my husband Chuck shifted closer to me and put his arm around my soft belly. Two of my dogs snuggled closer, Griffin at my left hip, and Trudy against my right leg, as she emitted her soft, contented Boston Terrier snort.
A smile on my face, I drifted back to sleep, feeling grateful and loved.
I talk about perspective a lot in my blogs and perhaps it is applicable here. How many of the people I envy would cherish a moment like this.
But taking envy and perspective totally out of the equation; perhaps I should simply focus on how great I really have it in so many ways, and not worry about what everyone else has or doesn’t have. Yes, sometimes it is okay to just make it about me — and the loved ones who bring so much depth, joy and beauty to my life.
I am blessed.