I should have used better judgement yesterday when I felt this cold coming on, but I was determined to celebrate my birthday. So here I am now, my official full first day of 55, and I am feeling lousy — and guilty.
I wish that I was one of those employees who could shake off any guilt of taking sick time, and just work on getting better, but I feel as if I am inconveniencing people — my manager in particular — by having them scramble to find fill-ins for me.
The upside of this problem is that I am on the radio and those that want more on-air work are usually pretty accommodating, providing they don’t have any conflicts; but part-time/fill-in work alone doesn’t pay the bills, so most of my fill-in people have other jobs — ones that they may not like as much, but that do pay the bills. That is where the conflicts arise.
So, I have just gotten confirmation from my manager that my afternoon shift can be covered tomorrow, but so far, no takers for the morning shift. And for that I feel guilty, and yes, even a bit frustrated.
I don’t take sick time lightly; in fact, the 2 1/2 years that I have been with this company I have not once taken sick time when it wasn’t warranted; trust me that even those of us fortunate enough to work in radio still enjoy our leisure time (and sleeping in) even more. I have worked with people who simply didn’t want to come in so they casually tell their manager(s), “I’m not gonna be in this afternoon (or tomorrow morning), etc.” Thud. I have more integrity than that.
But integrity shouldn’t translate into guilt, especially when you already feel physically run down.
While writing this I have been toggling back and forth checking my email, and as it turns out, I am covered for tomorrow morning, and both shifts on Friday as well, if necessary. So there is a “happy” ending.
Now I need to send emails to my two fill-ins — Ryan and Mel — to thank them wholeheartedly and to make sure they have everything they need to work my shifts.
Yeah, it’s that integrity thing again; fortunately there is now very little guilt to tarnish it.